current mood:sadness falls upon me...):

todae went for 2nd round of Commonwealth Youth Slection Trial.nervous was wt i felt whn i was resting and waiting for my detail to start.the gals did quite well.aft tt was my detail.bought seasons ice peach tea.as usual for evry competition i will nid a seasons tea.starting was gr8.i shot pretty well.thn on my actuals,bullshit.i felt totally a different thing.WHY?? I JUS DON GET IT! my score was 540!!!!!N ITS SOOO UNXPECTED!!!WT THE F IS WRONG?!the moment i saw my score , e feeling was lyk , emo mood oreadi thn it went WORSE! 4got whther i got 8th place or 9th.dominic had the same score s me.bt i was 1 place ahead of hm.hope he doesn't feel s bad s me....i jus feel tt its...soo...unreasonable.why?wt happened?someone answer me?i can't imagine tt i shot 540..................


eliminating evry possible factor tt may cause my bad performance..

-gng to modify my pistol til im bck to my standard of shooting........
550~600.nth is gona b lesser thn tt.



wt xactly went wrong????????
ARRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....